Two Poems by Lauren Suchenski
All you can measure
Two black holes;
I am, i am
spiraling towards an infinite pool -
of matter, or how it matters, or the mingling of
Time + space
they say {now}
that they’ll collide, form one
massive
turnstyle of gravity
pulling in light like a circus tent
they say the waves
will tilt through the atmosphere, sift like
gaseous wishes willing themselves through every
bit of borrowed meaning / will tumble and twist
and contort every shape, / will pull through my body
(moving a particle of two)
And the tiniest pieces of my heart
will register
the way it moved through
you, and the tiniest core of my brain
will pulse
one particle at a time
towards spiraling
towards that silent collision
into one
they say everything will matter, everything
leaves traces, everything pulses, everything
sends out meaning;; gravitational waves
or the sound of the world chirping back
or the sound of the sun singing light
into day
or the sound of our threads pulling
pulling;
towards;
towards
And finally
(the waves will be all you can measure)
I never wanted to know
I never wanted to know
what missing you would feel like;
But now, (without a doubt),
the cement bounces back
every little memory;
Certainly, the trees’ barks are covered
in your laughter
and the buried breaths we drew like shapes
are fossilized in air
the damp ache in my blood /
the old restlessness in my ligaments /
the endless parade of old cliches that
drag themselves to my doorstep /
I patchwork-fantasy my brain back
together - I cobble old smells of tea and burnt
popcorn into my sensory repertoire
I hold these little sieves of
sense memory in my hands -
Something to hold on to;;
The taste of saturday afternoons
on your couch ;;
or the sound of our teeth being
brushed together in unison at 2am
I hold these little whispers of a life
I bundle them;; kindling --
Something to light a fire with //
I watch it glow;;
ember ash turns fireflies of us all
Lauren Suchenski has a difficult relationship with punctuation and currently lives in Yardley, PA. She has been nominated twice for the Pushcart Prize as well as twice for The Best of the Net and her chapbook “Full of Ears and Eyes Am I” is available from Finishing Line Press. You can find more of her writing on Instagram @lauren_suchenski or on Twitter @laurensuchenski.